In June, I turned 28. I graduated high school 10 years ago. The 9/11 attacks were 10 years ago. And this New Years Eve, I will have been with my husband for 10 years (dating, we celebrated 6 years marriage in May).
For what ever reason, this kept me awake last night. Is this what I thought I would be doing 10 years after graduation? I can honestly say I have never been one to "look to the future", so i can't really answer that question. But I will be the first to admit, I am pretty freaking happy with how things have turned out. No, I'm not a rich millionaire, or own my own company, or have some amazing career.
But I have a very happy healthy marriage. I have 2 amazing kids. I have a beautiful house, cars that run, animals that add to the happiness of our lives, amazing family all around. I have never wished I had done things different. Being a mother is the most rewarding, tiring, wonderful job in the world, and I think my kids are pretty awesome.
But some days, my mind just wanders back in time. Not that I miss it, but it's fun to remember. Like the first time I went to the bar, or where I was when the 9/11 attacks happened (I will never forget waking up and wondering what was going on. Then watching all day long, the footage over and over again in disbelief). Meeting Brett at the all ages dance, the time and things we did together. I must admit, the year I turned 18 was a great year! The friends , the family, and everything that came of it.
I'll never forget my first experience at the bar, drinking with Niki, and hanging out with guys that had daughters our age (visiting town, never tried anything, bought us drinks all night, and won us Nickelback tickets). I still laugh at the stupidity and completely weird but incredibly fun evening!
Some days, it's hard to remember how far we've come. Kids, Marriage, Life, Responsibility, they are all hard. Some days they all suck. But some days, I wonder how we ever got along before everything that is in our lives. Especially when you walk into the living room to see your baby asleep in your toddlers arms: